Monday, May 25, 2009

Revitalise!

It's been rather dry spiritually the past two days. Not just spiritually but emotionally and physically. Long stories to go with it. But what's encouraging and what was the highlight about the long stories... was that God was with me through it all. You should see how He just help me flow through my work even with trouble 12 patients. It may tough. And I am weak. And my God is tougher and He is stronger! :)

So yesterday, I was dragging myself for service even though I really wanted to just rest and stone at home. And just suck in whatever dust that can help me stone well enough to be more alive! haha. But nah, I went ahead knowing that it's gonna be good service like always! And boy, I was tremendously blessed!

Worshipping God, praising Him and just resting in Him filled me with so much that I don't feel thirsty anymore.

And when I'm hungry about the word, I was fed with so much nutritious words that amazes me. He spoke to me in so many ways. I'm so saturated about His love, His grace and His grace.

Super abounding Grace of God!

More to that when I find out more! :) Now, cheers (with my hot hot green tea) to a blessed day ahead! I'm so revitalised now! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Vivvianne at 5:50 AM

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Father Child Training?

I don't know why but I feel that there's some kind of training going on in my life. And it seems to be happening for a good reason.

I happened to read a blog that I frequently read. The author mentioned about her walk with God. And about how God tests her the different 'hindrance' to His true abundance blessings. And I can't help but to feel that I'm in that kind of training to. It just relates so similarly.

God seems to stripping the bad layers which are hindrance away. Money? Power? Fame? Recognition? Earthly love? Whatever it is? It seems to me that He is training me.

Umm.. Interesting huh? Let me go through it and fill you all with more first hand experience through it all.

Vivvianne at 1:11 AM

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Friday, May 15, 2009

Investigations on myself and Conclusion to it all

You know how investigations as a form of assessment or reassessment? I did that to myself. I ran several test to check the recovery process for myself. I wanna see how well have God repaired me. And GOOD JOB GOD like how one friend puts it. hahaha.

I ran several tests on myself with different variables. I faced those variables and searched my heart about it. Previously, I would face those variables unknowingly and painfully. But this time, I put myself to the test. One by one, I faced the variables purposely and going through my feelings. I just felt prompted to do so. And I faced it all. And taaa daaa! I passed! I am so proud of my healer! And I'm so proud of myself!

I love how my God heals me in section. In the past when I thought I'm healed, another hidden variable will pop up again and again. And I'm on to the healing chamber again. It goes on on repeat mode. And after a thorough healing process, I've been healed and repaired from all the variables caused by one source. What a dissapointment! But what a joy I find in my wonderful loving God! And what a joy and love I've received from my friends who really matter! And you know, I prayed to God that I wanna be fully repaired and healed before I hit 21! And Amen! My prayer was answered! :)

It's a long, arduous and painful process that made me even stronger. It made me understand myself better. It made me feel better. It made me appreciate and savour better. It made me learn how to love when it's so hard for my human nature to love. It made me experience God's love thoroughly in a different angle I've experienced previously. It made me understand how to cry. It made me learn how to pray for and love those who've hurt me. It made me learn so much that I've 'level up'. I see what I want better because what I want is what God wants. And what God wants is what I want to follow. I don't need to have bad stuff happening so I grow in my closeness with God. It don't work that way. I'm closer to God because of our journey together. I am amazed at how my God turns the evil, bad, sad stuff to good stuff for me. He step in to turn evil to good. So that's the beauty! Do you see that? :)

As much as you've hurt me previously, I forgive you a long while ago. And I love you as how I would love my friends. And I'll continue to keep you in my prayers. You know who God is. You've experienced Him in the prayers I've prayed with you. I pray that you'll experienced His true and great love personally with Him. And this is what matters most. And this is what I want for you... To experienced how much God loves you. :)

Vivvianne at 12:49 PM

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