Thursday, November 12, 2009

Oh, Daddy Daddy!

Daddy God, I love to be in warm embrace!

There's one thing I'm always thankful for. And that is people.

I was talking to my good friend. I just realised how Daddy God has led him to lead me to somewhere where I really really really grew. I'm so blessed to have great friends like him! :)

Seriously, I've never been so in loved with Jesus. I've never been so fervent till the point I realised that my heart is not just sparked on but it's on this fire that can't be tamed! Hallelujah! And I'm so grounded and I can't be wavered any o how now. I just don't know how to put it. My heart is so filled. My mind is so filled. So filled with the love, joy grace, hope, faith and so much more blessings from Daddy God.

I wish I can elaborate more but it's really beyond comprehension.

I am so heartened, so warmed up, so blessed and so loved. I can't help but to be basking in His glory and in His love.

And you know, all these is only possible when I hear about my Jesus. So much about my Jesus! And seeing Jesus manifested in my life. Hallelujah!

Good night!

Vivvianne at 1:47 AM

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I didn't felt like going to work

I remember how one of my leader, Sophie, mentioned how much she dread going to work and she'll cry about going to work the following day. I wondered why. But now I understand it myself.

In my past 7-8 months in Nursing, I never felt like not going to work. I was weirdly anticipating for work. But for the past few days, I really dread the thought of going back to work. It's not because of the work. But because of the people.

Somehow, as much as I feel that way for the past few days, I'm better now. I'm okie about going back to work after a 4 day rest. Not quite restful because I'm still busy during my off days. But oh well, I've to go work tomorrow. And I will.

I love how Daddy just speaks into my situation each time. And my joy really comes from Him. My joy is in the finished work of Jesus. I'm still joyful because joy is something permanent that's within me. Happiness is just temporary. Joy is everlasting. I may not be happy about things but I'm still joyful. I don't know if you understand me. But Daddy gave me this revelation of understanding about the word joy. It means so much. That's why I love the word love and joy. Love from Daddy God that gives me true joy! Like how my baptism name is Vivvianne Joy. Full of life; spirited and everlasting joy from Daddy God! :)

I know and I believe and I proclaim that Daddy God's arms is hugging me and protecting me at work. I'll have angles guarding me. I'll have Daddy's iron shield upon me. My joy will radiate with smiles. And His favour is upon me. His wisdom is upon me! His love is burning in me! Come what may, Daddy God is always with me!

I'm so looking forward to the next big chapter that I'll flip in time to come. Steadily and readily, things are falling into place like Daddy has promised me. This is the true testimony of Daddy God's promises unravelling. Hallelujah!

Vivvianne at 11:36 PM

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The Butterfly Circus

Vivvianne at 2:10 AM

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Monday, November 09, 2009

Every Time I Breathe (Big Daddy Weave)



I am sure all of heaven's heard me cry
As I tell You all the reasons why
This life is just too hard

But day by day
Without fail
I'm finding everything I need
And everything that You are
To me

Chorus:
Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never want to leave
I want to stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face
And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

Now how could I after knowing One so great
Respond to You in any way
That's less than all I have to give
But by Your grace I want to love You not with what
I say
But everyday
In a way that my life is lived

Chorus:
Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never want to leave
I want to stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face
And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

Wrapped in Your mercy I want to live and never leave
I am held by how humble
Yet overwhelmed by Your majesty
Captured by grace and now I'm finding
I am free
You are marvelous God
And knowing You is everything


I really thank God for this friend of mine. He really listens to me attentively and share with me about Daddy God. And just awhile ago, this good friend gave me a rhema qara from Daddy so unconsciously and unknowingly. Next moment before he turned in to zzzleep, he shared me this song qara. Right place and right time. And this song really sums up my week and probably my upcoming week. The lyrics speaks about my words to Daddy. I'm so blessed to have Daddy sending great people to me. I am so blessed. So blessed.

I'm just so warmth and hearten. With the dim lights in my room, bolster in my arms, enjoying the scent of the annointing oil and this song playing on loop, I'm recollecting the events this week. I had a jam packed week. There're so many things happening of all emotions. And I love Sundays. I love how I keep hearing about my Jesus. It's all we ever need. Jesus is more than enough. Talk about Jesus and be soaked in Jesus. And watch what He does next. And I love Sunday like how I love today. Daddy just spoke to me, touched my heart and filled my heart. I am so filled today. The message I got from Pastor was so awesome. Daddy showed me a different light about the mystery of suffering. And Daddy spoke to me so much to the situations I'm facing. The devil one has no legality over me. And what touches me the most that made me cry was... Jesus came forth. Jesus came forth. Jesus came FORTH. My Jesus came forth willingly with no reservation to be nailed, crushed and condemned on the cross. Do you know how beautiful is that? His breeze in church just sweep my heart off the ground. Tears just welled up and spew out of my eyes. My heart was so warmed and so loved. I know His love is way way way beyond anything in the world.

My Jesus came forth. My Jesus came forth. My Jesus came forth!

5Then came Jesus forth, wearing the crown of thorns, and the purple robe. And Pilate saith unto them, Behold the man!
6When the chief priests therefore and officers saw him, they cried out, saying, Crucify him, crucify him. Pilate saith unto them, Take ye him, and crucify him: for I find no fault in him.
- John 19:5-6

Until you know how much God loves Jesus, you won't know how much God loves you. Because God gave Jesus up for you.

Vivvianne at 1:16 AM

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

Rhema qara

When you are full of life, you just don't get affect by other people trying to condemn you.

It's so true. It's so right. These words came like rhema qara from a friend from a conversation. And it's so unconsciously said. And it came like qara. Praise God! I'm not affected by bullies.

Thank you Daddy! :)

Vivvianne at 10:48 PM

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Friday, November 06, 2009

Hamtum the bullies

I am very very very angry about the big bullies around. I am so angry that I told one of them off. It's my last day there. And I think what one of my good colleague said was so right. They're bullying me altogether. Just because I'm new? Just because I'm deployed there? That's so mean! And they don't understand what I went thru during my morning shift. It's just so painful to see fake mask unveiled and arrows shooting. I even witnessed how one staff gave a feedback form to a patient to lodge another complain against her fellow colleague who's off duty secretly. When it was just a misunderstanding between this off-duty nurse and the patient. Backstabbing! How sad! Not all nurses are angels. I saw and witnessed it for myself. I can't wait to get away from the horrible place. My colleague warned me. And now, it's coming true. I'm so glad I'll probably work with them no more.

I miss my previous ward so much. We're so much like a family and we work as a team.

Vivvianne at 6:29 PM

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Thursday, November 05, 2009

My Shepherd

Daddy is my shepherd. And I'm the baa baa sheep.

I love how my shepherd protects, guide, takes care of me and love me.

Daddy...
You give me rest in the green pastures
You lead me beside the still waters
You restore me
You lead me and crown me with your righteousness
You walk me thru the valleys in life
You love me so much that I fear nothing
You comfort me
You annoint me
Your mercy and righteousness follows me
You hug and let me dwell in your presence

At work today, I see good and bad happened. Bad became good. Good became super duper good. Bullies are marked down by my Daddy God. Daddy opened my eyes to see the bullies and assured me it's okie and He is my righteousness. He showed me that I'm doing the best for my patients. Even though people push their work to me. Just because they know I'll do those extra work and their work. Meanies. But I don't really care. I also see how Daddy God's favour and blessing is upon me. The dowager showed some concern while I was working. That's rather rare. But I just know that I do all things for Daddy God with Daddy.

I also witnessed how one of my patients received Daddy God's love while working today. I heard familiar chinese hymns that I hear on Sunday when I go service with Popo. So amazing and so lovely! At one point, my patient was so suicidal and keep talking about death. And the next moment, He received the eternal life that is sooooo precious and sooooooo blessed! All glory to Daddy God! And all possible because of Him! He is the one who gives true life! The human body's life may die and may deplete. But what really matter is our life don't stop when our human body battery goes dead. Our lives continue by Daddy's lap and enjoying eternal life in heaven! I see the distinct difference about life in my friend's dad who's passing away soon from last stage of cancer. It's painful to see and witness and even know of someone's death. It's not easy at all. It's the emotional pain that hurts more than the physical pain. I don't know why. But I can't wait to depart from my human body and be with Daddy! But I know Daddy God has so much adventure installed for me before I go. :)

Hallelujah! :)

Vivvianne at 11:45 PM

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Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Oh, Daddy!

I really love my Daddy on earth. My mummy too! Love both of them super duper much much!

I really love my Daddy God who is not only high above in heaven but who lives within me. I love how He's beckoned me with so much love. I'm so intoxicated. Seriously.

I just 'kinda' solved the issue about my roof. It's super pricey for a new home at this place. But I just see my Daddy's assurance. And when He assures, He delivers. He knows my heart's desire. He knows what's best for me. I'm just so heartened at how His very promise to me thru Isaiah 58:11 is coming so true and so real. Can't be any surer about it.

And I love how Daddy God guard my heart even without me realising. He guarded my heart from the worldly gossips, bad-mouthing, finger-pointing, green-eyes and bullying. I love how my hero guarded me with an iron shield from work-bullying. I seriously didn't realised that I was bullied. I was just doing extra things for my patients and colleagues because I wanted to help. Yet people are taking advantage. It's too much. But I'm not upset about it as much. Just very thankful for good colleagues who tell me. And I love how my hero save me from all these! I just keep seeing favour from many others thru Daddy. And I just keep seeing my blessings flow down to me. Annointed from right above! :)

Praise Daddy God! His grace is that saving and amazing grace in my life! You don't know how happy I am. :)

Vivvianne at 10:57 AM

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